Need Excitement!

So much has changed for me in the last year!

1. D&H is out of the picture --> but remains a friend because he actually is a cool guy

2. Crummy job gone, went back to school and graduated top of my class :)

3. Left L-Town and moved back home. . .still stressed about not having a place for the Things and I but at least we're closer to family and friends.

4. Got a new job, it's not the greatest but hey --> it's better than nothing and pays a lot nicer than the dead-end one so I can spend time with the kiddles

5. For the first time ever, I visited the East Coast to see Dawg get hitched (congrats to him!) and surprisingly met someone there. Crummy dresser but still cute.

6. The same someone gave me some serious bling during Christmastime so we're engaged now :)

7. Lost weight and played Mas in Carnival 2011 --> L and M actually went to Trinidad to do it recently and I'm so onboard with wanting to do that next year!!

8. Despite everything. . .and it is A LOT! Still always want something to look forward too. I hate not being able to look forward to anything. Because then it seems like everyday just rolls into one another I have no life or excitement. Just have to figure out what my next goal will be. BTW -- getting a divorce is still a big priority on that list XD

Generation Next

I woke up and finally realized that I'll probably never be happy. Too many wrong choices made in my life and too late to change them now.

So I'll probably do now what many generations before me have figured out before I get put out to pasture. Be happy in my mundane-esque life and hope I teach kids not to make the same mistakes I've done. Indeed life can certainly end at 30. I hope and pray that they make all the right decisions so that they can always be happy and enjoy a beautiful and wonderful life.

I'm sure it's what every parent hopes for :)

30 :/

I'm 30 today. . .sh*t!



Well, I'll make the best of it :)


Uh, I'll try to at least D:

Happy Mother's Day!!

Happy Mother's Day!! I think I've posted it before but meh. . .great song :) Lots of love to the hard-working real mommies out there :D

Cause I'm the only one who understands how to make you feel like a man

Obviously, everyone knows that songs remind you of things. Sometimes bad and sometimes good. I'm not trying to be introspective. . .just remembering a happier time for myself. . .

When you wake up it's a new morning. . .

Like this drudgery will never end. So much stuff is just. . .gosh, I don't know. Putting the pieces together but then more stuff keeps cropping up. I believe in some cases I deserve since I should know better by now o_O

Forever Man. . .

Yeah, my love life is a horrid thing. . .I know.  I just find these men who are absolutely perfect yet flawed on some level. Dark and Handsome vs. German Steel. I just don't know. Nothing with German Steel of course, since I only deal with Dark and Handsome. . .despite everything, I'm apparently a faithful person.  What should I do?  I find men a little too easy to please nowadays. . .very little required on my end of the deal.  Doesn't matter anyways since I'm perpetually single to begin with :)